Only a Houre

since i got up i have a hard headach i don't how stop it i thought maybe because the weather or what i ate
i can't face them eyes to eyes coz i will feel cry
so i leave them all and come to my pc

Last Night

Last Night
Tonight will be the last time for me in my house
I will go to UK stay there about two months
Really I will miss them
I wana stay with them and talk
I wana they know that I love them and really I will miss them I am not careless
I don't know how other feels when they leave
At first time I feel a huge of love for all… for everything
Today we have a very big beano for AbdulRuhman bin Abdulla
As if this for let them to say Goodbye for us
All my sisters will sleep in our house alllllllll even Alanoud
Now in the room there are Sara – Rawan – Afnan
All is here

48hrs left

tonight i just start to understand that i will leave all
i will leave the girls
my sisters
my nieces
my mom
my room
i will leave everything

i am wondering where was my feeling when i desided to go to uk

Friday

Every friday we say good bye for a week
i imagen friday like white day between other days coloured some ttimes
someone said "People are lines Writen by water " and i think it is the same with days but the dif is that days is writen by coloured water !
only one week to leave my home
i don't know how long i will be there
but i am waiting think this week will be full of alot of things and emotions
i keep my love for my mom in side my heart while there is no meaning of love if we don't show it to other specially mothers
i will miss all my sisters and brothers my nieces specially Noor and Solaf that crz little girl only 15months but really unbelievable :)
Goodnight
time to sleep

New Labtop

#1
just before minuts solaf disappear
it used to be dissapear or missing for kids here but in everytime like this i got deep feeling about the meaning of death or disappear for ever how will contenue the life .. we remember the death ...

2#
this is the first blog with my new labtop i just got is yesterday

3#
i should got new sofware the helps in writing the blogs

under the light of my labtop screen

today I lil happy that I got what i want even if it is som small things
like cutting my hair
new luggage and labtop bag
buy miranda long time didn't drink it even if i bought three with orang and strub. i didn't take it coz my niece thought that i bought for them
Marshmallow
new labtop Simense with headset
everything was new even that cover i asked my sister for she bought a new for me !
happy i got more than 5things as new today
yah it is childish
but we should enjoy our simple things

while at the end of the day my mom heared bad words from my dad
at first time i feel sorry for that indeep i feel it
what kind of life if there is someone who judge and control our lifves?
what kind of life if i give and give without asking then i don't get a thank i just get bad things if i do such simple wrong thing
really i hate life like this
wana be free

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From Death live is gotten
three will never be together happiness .. health and mony
no one has a right to judge the people

All Of Us Under The Same Sky !

It is the only Shoes Where takes us to Happy Places :)
What is life human ? Believes .. thoughts experiouns .. lessons .. Life IS Something UNKNOWN

When we Miss Them .. We Can't Reach Them

alot of thought we say it but we keep it inside our souls
sometimes there is alot of things or even one thing we keep it inside us even after our death

Love

Why .. Whyyy I am in 24 without main person
i don't believe lovers online or on phone
loves means stand beside be with the lover or friend when need
support looking after it is not only words it is actions .. i don't think i got this feeling for long time maybe with girls few times throw school or collage only studying time
but still the most support of woman is man
it is the nature still i got bit support from my brothers
but they are my brothers
wana support from man that choise me or i choise him
life will be more beautifull full of happiness and meaning
have reason to live for

dispointed

today I feel the meaning of fault and be not as normal arround me
sometimes even if all say i am good , nice kind and so on .. i feel that they think there is inside my girl body there is a man's heart
Really my thought my believes not like girls
i don't care about girly things makeup fashion and so on yah i care about my look to be good and nice
but i don't follow it like other girls
Others said i am againest my socity i try to be away from it don't like it .


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Be Free As Far As You Can... When U Accept Someone Accept him With all His Good And Faults don't try to change him .

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life will not end if i will complete my life as single
life full of alot of happy things not only marrage

Nite and Sleep Tight:)

Count Down

only 15 Days
to Travel To UK don't know how long I will Be there but it's first Time to go there it is ok because there is my brother with his family , my niece with her husband and her brothers will go there to her
that means will be great meet them there
whil I just Want go there for Studying English and try To Visit a Doctor wana chick my Eyes there I am So Scare about it because Maybe one day I will lose the ability to see :( lose my sight
yah I trust My God but I just wana do the reasons

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I will Miss My Niece Here Noor I love here I asked her to buy New Labtop and headset with mic to talk with her everyday about 2hours or as I can
I used to leave my parents before sure I will miss them but not like Noor
Maybe it will be good chance to refrish my relation with my mom :)

I found it !

I found some of My Old Blogs

Really I am So Happy

Yah The Most Blog not with them Coz I delet it till now after two years I still feel sadness coz what I did

coz that Blog Was Most thing I got it From Internet:(

however no need to be sorry

here is some of my blogs

I was here !

ppo

My world

Ekleal

LIFE

Last tow days i was with Nora that little girl I talked about her manytimes

i think her love is enought for me she is pure got hard accedent affected on her health her breath her feed and so on
throw weeks she will leave to USA
Ya Rab Help her and let her come back with all her energy and healthy
still heart with her
no day without her cpmes to my mind and sight

Tired

I don't know what is the wrong with me and others around me
i think the problem is me:(
ya Alla
Life isn't as seen