it had been long time

miss posting
last time I only save some sites from other laptops
coz long time didn't come online
alot happend last week
Hayoona came from uk
her brothers came today morning
I have a plne next thursday
all this three months I only set at home ten days in Ramadan
18hours in augost and inshalla 5days in october

I wish if I contnue travelling it doesn't affect on me

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these days I feel lil scared from someone's hand reaaly it scared me very big hand it looks like a crimenal's hand

everydayd I can't stop thinking about darkness even if I'm joky girl and make fun arround and lookfroward in good and happy thought but really there is a fear inside me about darkness
losing sight it means losing connection with the world

if I can't hear I can connect by sign language
if I can't talk I can also writing or sign language
but if I can't see
how I can look after my cleaning .. healthy .. food and everything if that happen one day I will ask my family to be hospitalizen
when I close my eyes I can't hear , smell or breath sometimes while that in normal life

Alla with me
and I trust my God
I will try to fight my fear

some times there are some feeling and thought can't explain it by our language